A few years ago, there was this cafe I know and passed by. I was never really fond of it. I've went there a few times, but there was no emotional attachment to the place. But just recently, I've found the place to be interesting. It offered something new, or maybe something I haven't noticed before. And I guess I'm getting fond of it. I enjoyed visiting the place, it lifts my bad mood sometimes. One day, I eagerly went to the place. I was looking forward to spend some good time there. I looked at the menu but found it hard to choose something. The person at the cashier (owner of the place) patiently waited. I know the person wants to make a sale, and to make the customers happy. The person waited and made no recommendations, maybe, afraid to push the customers away. However, nothing really appealed to me that day, that I thought I might have lost interest of the place. And so I decided to leave, without buying anything. Sad because I thought it was a haven for me, but it wasn't the perfect place for me after all. The bliss was just momentary.

Ano ba ito. Gusto kong magpaka-bait. Pano ko ba sasabihin sa paraan na hindi masama ang dating. Argh, ang hirap. Anyhow, 'di ko muna po-problemahin, not until magparamdam ka ulit. Hopefully by then, maayos kong masasabi. I treasure my friendship with everyone, see may entry pa para sa'yo sa blog ko. Kasi you've been a good friend in the past din naman. Haha

Cheer me up. Write me a note. :)

On with my life drama. Do we really need to make mistakes to learn? Or is it(learning) just a means to justify one's mistake? Not that I made a major major mistake. My point is, the shallowest of things I have to learn from committing mistakes. The mistake is not worth the learning, but there is no undoing it. It is nothing major anyway, I just have my sensitivity issues again.

Things may be difficult to process sometimes, I guess I'll have to learn that I'll never get the hang of everything. I hope that I could easily learn - to be vulnerable but trusting, dependent but not depressed (Dr. Komp). But at this moment when I'm barely understandable because I don't make any sense, I'm glad I have my little brother to keep me company. He surely does not understand all my drama, but he's right by my side and makes me laugh from time to time. Well maybe he partly understands or feels me, because he shares the same mood (which is very unusual for him). I know I don't make any sense. But I'll clear my mind, I hope soon. And I'll be leaving all the drama, and get on a lighter mood.

if only it was for me, matutunaw na ko. Haha but then i can't read you and I'm sure you won't tell, so how am I suppose to know? Naman, ako na ang feeling. Haha

gusto ko sanang makausap si ate karen ngayon, kaya lang busy sya. kaya dito na lang muna ulit ang outlet ko. nalulungkot kasi ako ng sobra, at naiiyak (/umiiyak). sabi ko sa kanya kanina: sana matapos na ang election. sabi niya, wag daw ako dapat masyadong maging involved. actually, OA ako. pero hindi ko talaga mapigilan na malungkot. hindi kasi ako natutuwa sa competition. at hindi ko rin alam kung pano tinatanggap ni ray ang mga bagaybagay, kung ako nga hindi kandidato affected at stressed out, sya pa kaya. nalulungkot ako, dahil feeling ko may kaibigan akong nasasaktan, at wala akong maitulong. nakakalungkot din na nangpipilit/nangaaway ako (lalo na ng blockmates) para sa boto kay ray. kasi hindi ko nga naman hawak ang boto nila, pero hindi ko mapigilan gawin yun.sorry. sorry sa mga taong naaway ko na. at kung may mga tao akong nasasaktan, totally unintentional yun. paminsan lang kasi, nauuna akong magsalita bago magisip. hindi ko talaga gusto makasakit ng tao. hindi naman sa may ginawa na kong napakasama. pero ang feeling ko kasi, dahil may pinapanigan akong partido, hindi ko magawang maging neutral/mediator/peacekeeper. sana na lang matapos na talaga ang election. at sana wala akong nasaktan/nasasaktan.